oh my.....it's been a while....

OK, so a lot has happened since the end of july....but i just don't feel like writing it all down at the moment....maybe another day....

i've been busy.....and i don't have the internet at my new apartment. i think that these are the two biggest reasons for my lack of updating.

whoopsie-daisie!

the end of summer....already?!?

my brother is officially married now. i wish him the best as he and teri try to figure out who they want to be in this world....i got to see a lot of family that i haven't seen in ages. i think i might try visiting them more often now!

i got to see kathy and mark for the first time since i stayed with them in New Zealand. i truly miss their awesome humor and their words of advice and i can't wait until i get the opportunity to go back and see them in NZ.

i just got back from the national KKY/TBS convention. let's just say it was interesting, to say the least.....

to keep things on the possitive side.....because there was lots of drama at convention.....

i learned a lot about my brothers this past week, a lot more than i ever thought i would. while i didn't have the chance to talk to every brother i wanted to more one on one, the ones that i did talk to had a profound inpact on where i want to see myself in the years to come with the organizations. things just make so much more sense now, i can't believe i didn't see it before. thank you so much brothers for always making me feel so welcome in the bond.

i also had the opportunity to present a workshop at convention. i realized once i got to convention, how far down the line i really was to be asked to present....but it didn't make a difference to me, i had an opportunity to serve. it wasn't the largest attended workshop - but the chapters that attended learned a lot chapter basics. the workshop went a half hour longer that it was supposed to and would have gone on longer if we would have let it.

i got an opportunity to stay with nothern iowa during convention - my sisters leslie t and jason, my brothers leslie g, jeff and jocelyn. while it had it's ups and downs for everyone, i don't think that i would have had it any other way. on our afternoon off from convention, it was officially 'the simpsons' day for us. we went and found a quick e mart in orlando, ate supper at the hard rock cafe and then watched the premiere of the movie at universal. leslie and jeff are fanatics of the show, so everything we saw that day brought a smile to everyones faces.

oh yeah! you'll never guess who got to sit next to WAVA, the founder, at banquet?!? that's right, i did and it was pretty much the most awesome thing ever!! you should ask me about all of our conversations, they just aren't meant for publication.

lets see, other things.......boston brass rocked my face off......mackenzie cochran plays a mean tamborine...jocelyn and have the same modern tastes in fashion......the gamma zeta alums are friggin hilarious.....i predict that the eta theta sisters are going to be loud and proud this year.....

on another note...only a couple weeks until the end of summer and the beginning of the band season. i'm sure it'll all be a blur.....

update....sort of....

so lately there has been a large amount of stress constantly going on in my life....and i thought that since it would only be filled with more stress, that i would attempt to relieve some of that by going to fargo to help out with orientation and recruiting band members......and then running a million and a half errands for my family (it's ok, i'm not mad about it - it keeps me busy, really)

....so i get up at 5am, get ready as usual and the power goes out very briefly as i'm drying my hair. that should have been my sign to go back to bed!!

....i go out to my car, because i'm ready to leave for fargo to get there by 8am and all of a sudden my car isn't working.....WTF.....so after 40 minutes of trying to reset the car's computer, i finally get it started....

.....only to ram the back end of my car in to the trash can placed at the end of the driveway, because after all, it was garbage day.....

.....then as i get out to assess the damage made to my tail light, my driver-side window falls completely into the door frame......

OMG WHAT AN AWESOME MORNING, IT'S NOT EVEN 8AM YET!

let's just say i snapped. at that point, i couldn't officially handle any more added issues in my life. i swore so much i think i created new and improved swear words.....

on top of all that, i've been super busy helping out my family with my brother's wedding coming up this saturday.....running small errands here and there......so i'm sorry if i seem slow to reply to anything in the next week - i've kinda got other things going on at the moment...

.....so yay for fargo....all i have to say is thank goodness that i got to hang out with corey and brian.....it was nice to not have to think about everything else, even if only for a little while

yup....

so i haven't updated for a while.....i guess everyone else in the world believes that my time = there time....

some day i will have a life of my own, but it looks like that's not going to be happenning this summer any time soon....so i appologize now if i don't call/email/im you all back if i'm not in a mood to talk - just take it as meaning i am taking time for myself, it's nothing personal.....

OOOOHHH, guess what world - i finally fell in love with a church!! i attended a service last sunday and honestly felt more at home there than i have anywhere else ever. EVER!

.....unfortunately, i can't attend church there because i'll creep one of my college friends out big time.....because for some reason, i'm not supposed to be into anything that he's into. he likes to make things incredibly awkward if i do.

other than that.....this is wierd, but out of no where - i've started to really enjoy reading books. i have strongly detested reading books all my life, but now i can't get enough of it.........

OK END AND STUFF- BUH BYE

GRADUATION!

OMG i did it and tomorrow, it becomes official - i will graduate from the North Dakota State University. it has been a long time coming, and i honestly can't get any more at excited - even though all the hoops i've had to jump, or rather learn to fly, through have almost driven me insane this year.

what's next for me, you ask?? i have absolutely no idea. i could do a million different things thanks to the opportunities i've worked hard to get.....yet still, there is never an average path to get to any of them.......

what is important to me at the moment?? my close friends and family. i would have never made it through the year successfully without them. now the thought of leaving them frightens not only me, but them as well. in the end, i know that i will do whatever is best for myself - but regardless of what i decide, there is no easy answer like i first thought there was at the beginning of the school year.

call me crazy, but a part of me wishes i could settle down for a while. not go away, but just slow down. over the years, there have been things i've neglected to do (ie - get healthy, find a religious denomination, etc) that i feel like i've missed out on. oh what the future holds.....

at this point, i can't even make a decision on where i want to go eat after graduation. i've got a lot of work ahead of me if i can't even decide that!!

on a side note, my parents asked me if i had thought of anything that i wanted for a graduation present. while there were a ton of things i would have loved to ask for, i went with asking for a life membership in TBS. no matter where my life may take me, i know i'll always have my inner band geek with me.

well, enough for tonight/this morning. i need to get a good nights sleep so i can look damn fine at the graduation ceremony!